Wednesday, April 19, 2006 cheryl from URL @ 5:24 PM todae aint a good dae 4 me .. though school days was good it wasnt till i went home to make a call. in school , i was havin course where we were to be formed in groups of seven . as usual my reaction will quickly go toXIU WEI , alicia and jing yuan .. we sat as agroup hopin to be grouped together but who knows . we werent . in e end i was grouped with alicia =) , thasveny , kassthuria , sadana and daniel .. we had fun creatiing cheers, playing games and more games .. it would be great if days in school were like this everydae . wow .. but i am no mood for this right now . i am depreessed and totally sad right now .. i just wanna do a duet but i dont think i can even have a chance . i went home to make a call hopin tt my dear friend lokies will allow me to do a duet with him .. but all he could sae was I HATE DUETS . that was what he could said .. i am his frieend right . i mean if my friend hates it i will try to adapt too . but i guess his fighting spirit went too strong . i know he really do hate duets but for a friend cant he help . i want this so badly but i dont think i will even get a chance to do it. i understand tt he wants to win and really do not care about his opponents even if they are his good friends but did he went to think how others feel? maybe tts just him when i was talking to him , i kept quiet for quite a period . shawn was linked to the call then .. i kept quiet still . and than lokies said bcos i was already half asleep .nopes .. i was crying so badly . i know how it hurts . even right now i cant control my cries . what makes me happy and sad the most is when i either get to do my dreaam ( jus able to do it . i can fly like real high) but when i cant ( i think all i can think is nothing .. i jus think why not i just giv eup . no i wont but i will not tell peeps my feeling , boilin everything inside . but guess i got this OPEN diary .. )
i really cant 4get this event . sometimes i really do find myself dumb to cry over such things so badly . but thats what i want so badly . that is my dream . i dont think anyone will understand this feeling unless one do have the same thinkin as i do
should i even quit choir . just to escape reality .. maybe i dont really believe such things as ****** now .. maybe jus being alone for a few days will help .. i just need to hide .. hide my feelings
CHERYL
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